It is now 12.53am and I don't exactly know what I have done for the past 2 hours being online. I had a chat with a couple of my friends and both of them have entered college. Both taking medicine courses too (now that I think about it), and both seem happy (:
Normally at this time, I'll either be asleep or having a late night date with my MP4 on nights that I can't have any shut eye. My phone seems very quiet tonight so I'm guessing they're out of credit or decided to have a good night sleep as well. But I can't seem too. Only God knows why.
Concerning college, well, at this point I think only I, myself know how frustrating it is to feel when there are no scholarships that come my way, or any colleges in the very very near future when everything else came so easy for certain people. Go in interviews and come out with a scholarship, jobs, everything. God.
Those people who got Khazanah and Bank Negara don't even have to worry anymore about trying to secure a scholarship or worry about another upcoming interview. Lucky. I don't want to sound bitter and I'm not, honestly. I just get very anxious these days on how my SPM results will look like and on whether I'll be able to nail a scholarship or even a good college for that matter. And the jokes that circulate in the house about my going to college or getting a scholarship or anything that concerns *kachinggg* is not all the time funny so please. I don't need another reminding, thanks.
Now it's 1.08am.
I'll try to get some shut eye before I'm asked to do all kinds of things tomorrow and have no energy whatsoever.
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