Insecure

It's been a while. I've been busy and also I didn't really have an idea what to write about. But I guess since this is my blog, I'm entitled to write the most outrageous things that I want to. Anyway, I've been preparing for my portfolios to University of Sheffield and also University of Cardiff. 

Here's a bit about the tasks :

1. 10 A4 pages of any kind of artwork displaying a variety of techniques in a number of media i.e Pencils, Oil pastels, Water colour etc. 

2. Display "my street" in any medium of choice and a 200 word explanation on it (Sheffield only)

I'll be honest, it's actually quite fun preparing for them but it also makes me feel a bit insecure. I've always been that way about my artwork, ever since I was in secondary school. I guess it's because there are just so many talented people out there, and I'm just starting out, it makes me feel that there's no room for an intermediate like me. How am I to compete with all the artists out there? Because essentially, all architects are artists. 

Will I be able to make it?

Will they like my work?

Is it memorable?

Have they seen it elsewhere?

When I get into the course, will I be able to constantly pour out brilliant ideas?

Day by day, as I'm getting closer to my A-levels results, I keep questioning myself more, and as I question, I do more work, and as I do more work, I do think that I'm getting better

But is it enough?