New Semester, New Spirit

Damn, that's a beautiful mess ain't it? Lol

It’s no secret that I constantly have a love hate relationship with my course. Last semester was without a doubt, mostly hate for me. I was stressed all the time, I cried myself to sleep a lot of nights. I was unhappy with a lot of the things that was going on in my life, personally and academically. Everything just wasn’t right, or at least didn’t feel right to me.

It’s funny because when I think back to last semester, I started the year really excited. I felt so keen on that project at first. But after the first half of the semester, after meeting my tutors week in, week out, getting lame rejections every single week, I became so sick of it that I just wanted it all to be over. Sure enough, after it was finally over, I rejoiced like nobody’s business and I was back to my normal cheerful (albeit a bit crazy) self.

I came back this semester with less enthusiasm as compared to how I was at the start of the year, mainly because I don’t want to get my hopes crushed just as it had a few months back. However, this semester has been lovely to me so far. Though I use a lot of my spare time (times I’m not in class) to do the work, it doesn’t feel like an extra burden to me, a feeling that I haven’t felt for the past six months.

This semester, we’re asked to design a dual occupancy house and a café/corner store. I can’t pinpoint exactly what it is that’s making me feel more excited this semester now that we're already four weeks in. Could it be that the project interests me? Could it be that I’m not dwelling with too many personal problems anymore? Could it be that I myself made a point to feel happy and not put unnecessary pressure unto myself?

Or maybe it’s just because I’m in desperate need to save my CGPA lel (kidding kidding) (okay, not really)

Jokes aside, my hunch is that it’s a mixture of all those reasons. Whatever it is, I know that this is Allah’s doing. Even if it gets difficult, it is so that we’ll keep on coming back to Him.

“Verily, Allah will never burden us with something we cannot handle”

“Verily, with each difficulty, comes ease”

Never mind the fact that I have to do over twenty models,

Never mind the fact that I know there’re going to be many late nights and probably more sleepless nights,

Never mind the fact that I might be upset from time to time because I’m stumped for ideas,

In shaa Allah, with the right intentions, He’ll always be our unbreakable handhold and He’ll guide us through and through.

In shaa Allah.